Doug Holder

 

It Was Like Diving Into A Swimming Pool and Coming Up Dry

And in my search
for what?
I threw myself into the pool -
the pull of the city
mastering the mediums
the studied jargon
the stilted conversations
the heated, capricious liaisons
the nocturnal forays
floundering in the drunken jungles.
And how many night classes
released me into
the cold desolation
of the street.
And yet
the day broke again
bright and so dense
and still
nothing made sense.


 

Wrestling in the Nude with My Father
 
Breast to Breast
he pulls me in,
I break from the control
of his heavy
paternal hands-
the smell of his sweat
a familial coat of arms
I want to win
but need to lose
for what can I gain?
Another King Lear
on the mat-
my foot planted on his
mottled face
upright to the supine
there is no victory
to be had
this time.

 


 

Heroin

To think
how his body
shed its ulcerated skin
rested near the maw of death
sunning at the brink of the
abyss.
Then to die
in the midst...
of bliss.


Ravishing Beauty

And how she bloomed
her hair fell
on her shoulders
with luxuriant
abundance.
Her lips full
red and inviting.
Framed by the enigmatic
darkness
her teeth flashed
white.
Her breasts full
barely contained.
A body of curves
nothing obscured
but defined.
All this
as life
fattened her
up
before
the kill.

 


 

A Nurse's White Scrubs

So blatant before
the shift.
Not even
off-white.
The pristine, virgin
surface,
flawless-
blissful
ignorant of stains.
The subtle
saturation
of sweat
waiting in the wings
collecting in her
pits
the flat plains
will soon tire
to wrinkles
crispness jaded by
the press of
all this flesh
Again-
it becomes
your second skin.

 

 




She Observed Me, Observing Her, Observing Him.

From our years together
I knew
that she would look at him.
The graceful fall
of his Prince Valiant
locks,
the outline of his
muscular calves,
through the thin veil
of linen pants.
From across
the aisle
my eyes
met hers
our articulate
mute conversation
I asking
and she
so casually:
"Nice, but I got you."

 

 

 

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